The family of Caroline Flack has chosen to publish the former Love Island host's final, unpublished Instagram post, which she wrote just days before her death.
In the post, released to local paper, the Eastern Daily Press, the 40 year old wrote that her "whole world and future was swept from under my feet" after being arrested for assaulting her boyfriend, Lewis Burton, last year.
Flack was found dead at home on Saturday 15 February 2020, having taken her own life. Her death sparked an outpouring of tributes from the TV presenter's friends and family as well as the public and press.
The ex-Love Island host wrote of her struggle since after arrested for assault (Photo: Hollie Adams/Getty Images)
Four days after her death, a coroner has confirmed that Caroline Flack died by suicide on 15 February.
The inquest has been adjourned until August in order to give the coroner time to gather toxicology tests, the post-mortem report and other evidence.
'I've been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time'
It is reported that the late presenter was advised not to share the Instagram post, but her family have now made the decision to release it to the public.
The message in full reads:
"For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me it's become the normal.
I've been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life - for my whole life.
I've accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it's all part of my job. No complaining.
The problem with brushing things under the carpet is.... they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.
On December the 12th 2019 I was arrested for common assault on my boyfriend...
Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed.
The presenter's death has caused an outpouring of grief (Photo: Ben Pruchnie/Getty Images)
I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.
I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is .... It was an accident.
I've been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time.
But I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident.
The blood that someone SOLD to a newspaper was MY blood and that was something very sad and very personal.
The reason I am talking today is because my family can't take anymore.
I've lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.
I can't spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.
I'm so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.
I'm not thinking about 'how I'm going to get my career back'. I'm thinking about how I'm going to get mine and my family's life back.
I can't say anymore than that."
If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, or need help with your mental health, you can find a list of resources to contact here.
The Samaritans helpline (116 123) is open 24 hours a day to provide confidential emotional support for people who are experiencing feelings of distress, despair or suicidal thoughts.